in my head : kanye west - stronger

if i've spent most of my life being disappointed on a regular basis , i would at least expect myself to be somewhat used to it . but who am i kidding . it never works out that way , does it . you keep expecting that people ( people YOU KNOW for crying out loud ! ) are going to do the right thing , say the right thing , behave the way they were brought up to be . . but it never happens quite the way you imagine it to .

i disappoint too ; but i've never made myself out to be a sanctimonious person . i believe in God ; but i don't claim to be a Christian and i don't go to church . i curse , i don't always share what i have and on occasion , i'm guilty of not donating to the less fortunate . if i'm perfect , it's only in the most imperfect way .

i can't quite figure out which is worse - those who live up to your expectations in the worst ways or those who disappoint . i've learnt that if you want to get through life with some semblance of control , you learn to not expect . but in the end , you always end up with expectations . i think the problem is that i always end up expecting .





xoxoxoxoxoxo ,
soho