in my head : private - secret lover

it's hilarious how screwed up the re-enrolment system in our school is . it took my an hour to log on ( because the system kept failing ) and another two hours to figure out what modules i wanted was permitted to take simply because the admin staff neglected to spruce up the module lists . our list is so genuinely fucked up that there are modules that are supposed to exist , but once the subject code is entered , the system fails and claims that it doesn't exist . then there a shitload of other modules that are not even being offered but are still entitled to sit on the list to take up space . the situation has become so ridiculous i opened my uni mail account to see twenty e-mails from various students complaining about how fucked up the system is . classic .

i find myself increasingly getting weak . it's getting harder for me to say no to things where i know have a really big chance of turning sour . i can't quite figure out if it's because i'm intrigued by the secrecy and/or seduced by the forbidden . i don't know if it's the lure of the maybe/what if/perhaps . i seem to enjoy deluding myself into thinking that it won't matter that much even if it does get really bad . but the truth is , it does and will matter to me . i can't stop myself from being attracted to people/things / situations that seem to need me so badly .

. : digs : .


tsubi men's tee + nike .


see below .


ghetto couture

i mentioned lusting after the gorgeous ghetto couture pair by ndeur the last time . now i really want more .

• alice mccall's embroided blazer
  
  
  unfortunately way out of my budget .
  

• striped men's tee from vicious threads ( got it ! )
  
• new dresses for spring ( it's just an excuse since singapore doesn't even have seasonal changes )
  
  
  a bit too much even for me .
  

i don't know how these things find me . i really need to steer clear from anything that can be potentially damaging on my wallet because it's starting to look like a starving african child - looking bloated on the outside ( due to the ridiculous number of receipts ) , empty on the inside .


xoxoxoxoxo ,
soho high above the clouds .